I Am Not Afraid

I have an incredible sense of peace during a time when panic and fear is escalating. I’m a bit baffled by this, but very pleased with my ability to pull from a source that has never failed me. I am not afraid.

I felt illness coming on last week and, of course, wondered if I should get tested for corona virus. I began educating myself with the symptoms and what to do if I was concerned. I did not freak out. I did pray for guidance and found comfort in believing I simply have a cold and seasonal allergies. I am not afraid.

Super Dad and I will soon be using our retirement savings and have great interest in watching people, who are afraid, take their money in fear and drive the market into great losses. I believe I will have enough. I am not afraid.

My daughter, Brown-eyed Girl, with school cancelled, has more time planning a wedding and starting a new job as head principal of a brand new program of an Early College Prep Academy. This is more manageable for her crazy schedule. Well-played, Lord.

I worked hard for two months trying to find a resort with 20 private bedrooms to lead a church couples retreat this spring. I had no idea how hard this would be and was ready to look at a Plan B when the virus stopped me from planning. Coincidence? I think not.

I love hearing similar stories of how people are forced to slow down, spend time with their family, and concentrate on what is important. We fly through our lives keeping appointments, making deals, attending activities, planning events and working ourselves into a frenzy at the cost of our health and our families. I am not afraid to slow it down and take this time to reflect.

I hear how we are adapting, quickly, with online educational classes for our children, school employees serving their students much-needed meals, attending church online to hear the message, and then being the church to our neighbor in need. I will make myself available to my son, Incredible Hulk, to watch my grandkids. I am not afraid to serve others in this time of panic.

I am not afraid, but I have been given wisdom. Beth Moore said it well, “Foolhardiness is not faith.” I did not attend church with a weakened immune system with my cold, I chose take-out last Friday night, I will adhere to the advice of public health officials, who like my other daughter, Health Nut, has studied these pathogens and understand their ability, and I will not put myself in a position, for my own pleasure, that could adversely affect myself or others.

Please understand, I have a deep faith! That is why I am not afraid. If I become infected, I trust God to either heal me or let me know this is my time to leave this world. Either way, I am not afraid. I would grieve deeply if I lost family or friends, but my God tells me they will be at peace and I will see them again. I am not afraid.

If you want to know my story of how my faith brings this peace in my heart and soul, please message me. I would love to share it with you and help you find a way through this chaos, pulling from wisdom, the truth, and without fear. We will get through this and we will be better for it.